
Thursday, May 13, 2010 @ 6:57 AM
I really do want to be changing for the better.
Yet.
I see myself becoming embittered, cynical, even more so than before.
Is that possible?
apparently it is.
but God, I know I can do this.
I know I can go beyond merely coping, grasping on, barely there.
I'm sorry for the things I've made it, because it genuinely is all about You.
Father help me to pray.
help me to pray.
help me to pray for wisdom, for strength, and most of all for discernment.
help me to discern what actions I should take, the paths in which I should go.
be my helping hand, oh Lord.
be my guiding light.
I need to come back to the heart of worship once more, and once again, let it be all about you.
Forget anarchy, and the frail, fallible humanity we're enclosed in.
Forget relying on just me, and forgetting that I can tap on an everlasting abundance of strength, mercy and grace.
Because I can't do this alone, Lord.
I really can't.
sometimes I feel so weak. I could just cry.
Sometimes my self gets the better of me, and I do things that shame You.
Forgive me, Father.
Help me to be more and more like who You want me to be, for Your glory.
Lord, let these tears be tears of renewal, washing away everything.
I gotta come to You empty.
Lord, I'm a jar of clay, but You're the Rock.
be my fortress, oh Lord.
Renew in me a spirit of submission to Your will.
Lord, who am I to think that I can do this all on my own?
Only through You, Father, only through You.